It still amazes me how brains communicate with you when you sleep. My woke me up at 5:08 am this morning to tell me that I am basically a positive person, but I sure don't sound like it some times, and I definitely don't project it outwards.
She's got a point. Here's a short example that speaks volumes. First, When I pass folks in the hall at work and they ask me how I am, I tell them I am "Good". (Which isn't a state of being at all, I should say "Well") This response is meant for the situations in which the inquirer is someone I don't know that well, but am respectably happy to see, or executives who don't really care what my answer is. If the inquirer is a current friend, they already know how I am and will say a smart ass comment. If they are a past cube neighbor, team member, or boss, they know I'm not in the best place in my career, and still smarting a bit from being out sourced, so they'll just accept an eye roll or heavy sigh, and we'll agree to meet soon. But, if it is a current coworker/friend/cube neighbor/team member............ I will grumble a negative comment. Why do I do that?? Positive people don't do that! My friend Michaela is a model positive human. She lets anything that's not going to kill her or anyone else roll off her back, and if anything negative starts to get to her, she rolls up her sleeves and combats it until it's resolved.
Second, I call myself a "venter". Definition: someone who has to talk through their anger at a situation or person to gain empathy, insight, validation or resolution. But as I age, I realize I really sound like a negative bitch sometimes. What's weird is I usually reserve it for Girls Night Out or work lunches or drinks with a neighbor. Those are horrible times to do it. I'm supposed to have fun and celebrate friendship at those times! So, I've decided I can do one of two things. Seek therapeutic coaching. Or two, text and call a bestie, whine and moan for a few minutes, then save the happy how do you do's and here's what I'm up to's for when you are together. (My brain probably told me this today to make sure I remember all of this this weekend when a group of girlfriends and I are traveling for a trip to Seattle. She wants me to keep my answers positive).
The idea from Scratch Made Market came during a conversation such as the latter. "I'm thinking of doing a market and I'd like your help", my friend Jenn told me one night. Of course I jumped at the chance because 1. Jenn is one of my favorite people in the whole world. 2. Jenn is one of the smartest people I know. 3. Jenn is one of the funniest people I know. 4. Jenn and I are both creative. 5. We both love vintage shops, shows, and repurposing wares. 6. Most of all, we respect art, artists, the artistic process, and creativity in all forms.
So, here we are. Our third annual Scratch Made Market. It's not the largest location where we've held it, but it sure is the fanciest, and we're grateful for the folks at the lodge. We've got a lot of work to do. Advertising, Artist judging, decorations, layouts, musicians booked, and more, but we love the process. And now that I'm going to be done with PTA in a month, I'm excited to make it my focus. AND, I'll be able to create again. Projects will be for me and the ones I love. Not posters, flyers, and handouts for the school that I love.
I'm positive that this year's Scratch Made will be awesome.